List of things

The following take place on my daily routine and often those of people I care about in my life.

1. There are people harassing me everywhere. At "home", at work, in the subway and on the commute to anywhere. At the place I live, whenever I step out there's usually someone out there and if I use the kitchen or go out for a quick grocery shop, people cross me deliberately on the way, every second of the day, as I walk out of the building in which I live (renting a room in an apartment four bedroom apartment with other roommates whom are purposefully loud and often adamant to socialize with the strangest greetings: How are you feeling? How's everything? How are you doing? All good? It's not so much the context as it is the deliverance and awkwardness, even as I use headphones. They'd cook if i cook, even at times go to the bathroom if I go.  Sure, it's a crowded apartment but there's usually one of them coming in through the door or going into the kitchen. 

Similarly, at the supermarket a line forms and people even cross my path as I go through the aisles. One man, for example, cross me and stepped on my foot twice. When I confronted him about it, he said that i didn't own the place and that he could pass by as much as he likes. I explained yeah, I know, calmly, but that there was no need for him to step over me as he did. 

2. My current smartphone as well as the last does unusual things. It is not old and I get texts sent to the wrong people. I get weird messages and calls, people supposedly calling out someone else's name or hanging up.

3. In the subway, there's always craziness going around but more so lately. I had said once at the place I  used to work (from which I was removed without explanation) that the MTA trains should have surveillance cameras inside the subway cars, not just on its platforms, and now there's people riding in front of me or nearby even when the train is half empty. I know we all have experienced these occurrences at one time or another but they are more pronounced as of the last year or so. 

4. My autistic son was taken from me under false allegations made by his mother. She was eager to throw me out of the apartment we shared ever since she found out I met with an ex girlfriend of mine on my trip to Rome last year. She has a criminal case for taking help with rent when she was receiving help from me and as I lived with her. The criminal case was brought to her as soon as I was out of the apartment. Both cases have had their share of weirdness and I say this in a dispassionate way. I don't let too much drama get in the way I see things but this is not dramatized one bit. Right now, as I speak, again one of my roommates cooks (my room is next to the kitchen) the staunchest meal that fills the entire apartment. They rarely mop or open up a window, and me being vegan, the smell of cooked meat does revolt me. No offense. My s ok n suffers at the hand of his mother, but to be fair is not her fault. She can't cope with him all by herself and her patience is nonexistent. She gets humiliated by people close to her criminal case, lawyers and law enforcement which, by the way, follow me everywhere I go. Whether I am in Queens, Manhattan or the Bronx. (I don't know about Brooklyn.) Right now there's a man talking outloud outside my window, the same conversation and greetings: How's everything? he asks, supposedly to someone on the other end of the call, and quickly answers himself: All good, thank God. 

4. They hate quite a few things from me, that make more of an easy target. I guess these are the things that irk others, the ones they've enlisted (the puppets) but not the ones behind the charade (the puppet master). They may say of me, Oh he's an outcast, he's a godless s.o.b. (in all honesty, I am not religious though I consider myself spiritual). They'd say, I am a socialist and the truth is, I don't really have the stomach for politics but I do get informed as to what is going on in the political spectrum, a reserved liberal, a moderate progressive. (And, again, right now the door to my room opened on it's own even though there's a sheet on the floor I placed there so that the stink out there doesn't get in. 

5.) My kid is autistic and I am a very good father to him. It is this the worst of lows delivered by them, to mess with a man for what he stands for is one thing but to mess with his family is quite another and to take away from his son is, well, unspeakably evil. They even used him against me, the social worker who started all this, rushed the case and based her accusations on a "conversation" she had all by herself in our bedroom with our son. Our AUTISTIC son who has the verbal and communication skills of a four year old. They got him lawyers that took him in a room aside from mother and asked him if he'd rather have me out of his life. Accordingly,  he said yes. We both chuckled when we her such argument in court. The case worker quit. My lawyer quit due to "conflict of interest" but would not specify as to what these were.

No explanation was given in either case. A day before my lawyer informed me of such decision, my wife informed me her lawyer had left her case and that she did not know why. So, both of our lawyers in two different courts (one is civil/family court and the other criminal court) almost simultaneously left. They had brought an autistic child expert to interview my son when I raised complaints as to his alleged confession and the expert said that he loved his father (me) and that he wanted me in his life. My wife had asked her lawyer in the civil case to drop the order of protection they put in place against me without her consent and her lawyer finally decided to downgrade it. In spite all this, the judge decided that I was not fit to parent and sent me to a monthly autistic meeting group and to take parental skills with a Fathers Academy, aka Friends 2 Fathers, that takes 20 sessions. I am already enrolled.  

6. My son has left home and ventured out on his own since then. The last two times he did so was under his mother's care. And I get the bad parent rap. She has little patience with him but, again, she has a lot she's endured. Her mother died of cancer just a few months before all this drama started and not so long ago her older sister too was diagnosed with it too. It's dispiriting to see her in such predicament, fending off so much barbarism on her own and having to take care of our son. 

7. The ACS worker who took the case once the initial one left had suggested unsupervised visits but every candidate we found was scrutinized and none wanted to out up with all the demands and trouble. What's curious, the home attendant that assisted my wife with our son for years was also asked to meet the same demands even though she had been cleared as my wife's homeaid. They took her out of the case as homeaid a few months ago, and took all the help my wife received. They had even taken my son's healthcare and had the nerve to accuse of denying him his medicine. In fact, I did no such thing. His medication is not to treat him of anything other than just to make him sleep and it's a really strong one which they give to hyperactive kids in the spectrum.  It was covered by his health insurance and when I was out of the apartment I had to pay for a room after spending a few weeks at my aunt's.  My aunt's health has deteriorated drastically since she helped me and she looks more fragile and weakened by the day. My uncle, her brother, suspiciously left the country as did another brother of hers, uncle of mine, years ago living in Texas. It's ethnic cleansing, for sure. My cousin, daughter to the uncle from Texas, received me in her apartment for a couple of nights and heard my story. A.few weeks later, the lawyer she was dating shortly after her divorce raised a case against her.